Mood: Frustrated
Last Spoke To: New friend
Last Harmed: 19 days ago (20-11)

Kay, so I managed to fix most of the drop, mostly on my own mind you! But he did message a few times, and has been quite affectionate. I gave him an offer to get out of the relationship, no guilt tripping what so ever, just gentle and even happy. But he said not at all still. So, I don't know! He did message me last night, but it would have been long after he got up and he used to message me from bed. And I answered, not getting an answer to that until 3 hours later. And he did tell me before he left for work. But you see now, usually he is home about now, and I've had no message. Only three messages all day.

Mood: Hopeful
Last Spoke To: My little one
Last Harmed: 18 days ago

Ok, good and bad news. Bad is that he didn't answer me in the morning. He didn't answer through the day. It was late afternoon before he contacted me. Was I pissed? Yes. Did I tell him? No. Could I remain pissed at him for long? No. Did he apologise? Yes. That was the good news, that he apologised. But now I want to rip my hair out because he is giving out orders again and I really can't please well at the moment, nor enjoy it. Will he understand that? Hell no. Goodness, I want Daddy to come home. I need Daddy to talk to my little one and teach him haha. But then he is giving orders about cuddles so perhaps it's how best he can show that kind of affection online for him. I suppose... Hm, I can't decide whether I'm making excuses for him by saying it's his affection or if I'm being difficult by saying he is giving orders when I can't handle it. Ah that's funny.

Mood: Lost
Last Spoke To: Daddy
Last Harmed: 17 days ago (20-11)

I wish my little one were here. I don't know what has happened, we were chatting a while last night but then suddenly he didn't reply. I'm not sure what happened. I just really would like him here at the moment. Just to sit in bed for the day. He can play as much as he likes, I'll wear whatever he wants, including nothing. I just want him to hold me. I miss him. He can wrap a belt around my neck and pull me into him, I don't really care. He has been out a lot and his kindle has been mucking up. Hmm. So we have been talking so little...click read more....